This weekend is July 4th. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. Alexei's birthday party is this Saturday, so I must show up and have fun. Marie and Sarah are going to see The Red Elvis' the same night. I wish I could go, but the birthday party is cheaper. Other than that (and putting my newly trained host family recruitment self into action), I don't have any plans. I should fix that sooner rather than later.
M and I aren't talking at work right now. We both need a LOT of space. I thought I could handle the space we had already, but M was like: "WOAH! You are all up in my business!" I wasn't trying to be, but he's a dude. Meh. Different definitions of friendship. He was trying not to be an asshole and/or dick by telling me "Liz? We just got out of something very intense and strange. Go away for a bit." And how can you say "leave me alone" without sounding like an ass? Not too many ways to do that. So, I thank him for trying to not be a dick, but in the end - the message of "leave me alone" wasn't as clear as it could be.
Shrug. Whatcha gonna do? I overreacted and was girly, but then realized he was trying to be nice while feeling really pissed off at me. Rock. Hard place. Girly emotions went into that place of epiphany. Thank God I did realize what he was trying to tell me. Otherwise, I might have let it sit and simmer and we might not end up in a good place.
Hopefully, by giving each other space, we can end up in that good place. Not sure what the good place will entail.... Maybe hugs. Maybe beer. Maybe just quick hello's on weekends. Whatever it is, I want that good normal feeling. I don't want to feel like I'm walking on eggshells and can't say shit around him.
Me? I'm using this newly found distance to work on my writing!!!
Marie wants to write a book about her childhood. I'm ghostwriting/editing. I think it could be really great for both of us. She's had a really interesting life and her story could help a lot of people I'm sure. One of those "you're not alone" books. We're not shooting for Oprah's Book Club or anything. But... catharsis here we come.
This is all very new for me - this situation with M. Not only am I learning, I'm hopefully establishing groundwork for a good friendship. And that's never a bad thing. :)