That's how I feel about my decision to find a cool internship in a foreign country. I emailed the person in charge of the one in Norway. It's for Americans and Germans, I speak both languages. Point for Liz. It's also from March to August, so if I still get into grad school, the schedules don't overlap. Point two for Liz. And they like it if you can stay for six months. March to August is six months. Point three for Liz.
You may be asking yourself why I'm looking for stuff like this.... And that's a fair question seeing as how I have a full-time job with benefits. Well, at the tender age of 23 I've learned that 40 hours a week, steady pay and some benefits on the side aren't all it's cracked up to be. I'm young. I don't belong behind a desk for a minute longer. Although, I'll suffer through until I go to Norway or wherever. Even if I don't get the internship, I'll find some way of leaving Berlitz by the end of February. It's not for me, there's no career there. Not somethingf I can sink my teeth into anyway. And I'm miserable. I don't care about the money or the benefits when I wake up not wanting to go into work. Sometimes I'm not even happy to see my co-workers. Not that they're not cool, all of them are. But the stress and disappointment of my job bleeds into everything, leaving me with this completely unsatisfied feeling in the pit of my stomach. Like today.
Plus, it'll be a break from the ordinary. Like I said, I'm young. I should be doing something much more fun than this. I can consign myself to the fact that once I get older and start having children and a mortgage and a marriage and all that, then I'll buckle down and do what I have to. But that's years away. I feel like I'm going nowhere and I want to go somewhere. I'm too curious and young and talented and intelligent to stay at home and sit behind a desk and feel miserable.
Point infinity for Liz.
So, cross your fingers for me and get ready to pull out your guns. I'm so ready to kill someone for this chance. Such an opportunity in a place that holds so much more for me than California right now. Who's here? My mom... Well, she understands and wants me to live and travel and explore. She gave me the idea. Emily. I'll be back in time so we can suffer through grad school together. And all of my friends that she's met will be here. Matt, Jose, Sonia... And she's met her own friends through her current job. Which is a POS job at that sometimes. I hope she gets out of it soon and can breathe easier at night. My friends. Well.... they'll be excited. And it's not like I'm moving there. It'll be six months. Hardly enough time to miss me. :)
I'm so hyped right now. But that means I'll have to really get in all the grad school stuff in by the end of January or the beginning of Feb. That I can accomplish. If I have Norway in front of me, I can totally do that. I have to tell Sonia this. And Em.