So, today I look like my own version of Jackie O. Pin-striped pants, shiny black shoes, brown long-sleeved shirt under brown cardigan, and brand-new tan coat (goes down to my knees rainoat type thing). Why might you ask? Well, I wanted to wear my brown cardigan. Been wearing it all weekend. Comfy. And my pin-stripes are clean. And I always wear my black shiny shoes, except today they look oddly bright. And I wanted to stay warm without clashing colors, hence my brown long sleeved shirt. And of course, my tan coat is new. Why wouldn't I be wearing it? Except.... you put all these things together and you get Jackie O in pants without her pearls and huge sunglasses.
Anyway, I still haven't heard from Norway, so I'm calling them tomorrow morning to check out when I'll expect an answer and see if I can answer any questions for them. Then they'll see that I'm serious about it. Because I am. I do want to extend myself beyond the boundaries of 8-5 behind a desk. And I keep making mistakes that I shouldn't be making at this point. Like teachers showing up when they don't have a class. Or not changing the schedule in the computer directly after speaking with a student. Or forgetting to call people back. Or not emailing people when I should and with the right information. It's not upsetting, but I hang my head and sigh. Because these are things I should be able to notice. I'm either worn out and tired or just too preoccupied or even too indifferent to care sometimes. Oh well if a class doesn't happen. It's not the end of the world and nobody's going to die. And it's getting really hard to fall asleep at night and wake up in the morning. I only got five and a half hours of sleep last night, which is way under my required eight. I'm not going to be useful today... very much.
I do need to train this German teacher to take over my morning classes. I felt bad this morning when Penny asked if I would see her next Monday. I said I'd see her next time. Whenever that is.... I mean, I can barely hold my arms in place to type this, no less answer the phone correctly or remember what I'm supposed to do today. Shit, the training is at 10:30. I gotta go.
I hate being tired and am so envious of Em. She got to sleep in today. I wish I worked from home. No dressing up like Jackie O anymore.... :)