I currently feel like I'm bursting at the seams. Damn lunch! Damn jeans!
On the other hand, I'm excited to just go home after work. Get into my pajamas. Watch some Olympics. Yeah, how laughable are some of the controversies coming out of these games. Chinese gymnasts that aren't of age. Swimsuit material that breaks world records. Digitally enhanced fireworks, just for the telecast. China's government has been masterful at double-think philosophy/psychology/ideology for decades. Why should this be any different?
It's hard enough for the entire country of 1.3 billion to act like a unified country with common wants and needs - when has China ever been anything other than a giant gray area?
Although, I don't care about the swimsuit material controversy as much, since it's been helping the Americans out. Ha! One night, earlier this week, it was like every single time an American was in a final, they won gold and made a new WR. Sounds good to me. My favorite moment so far was Jason Lezak's final 100m in the relay. Holy cow! I don't care if that's the swimsuit - that was exciting! Down a good body length, came from behind in the last 20m to punch in first and win gold. Even the swim experts can't see how he did it, other than pure muscle and heart. And swimsuit of course. :)
In other news, M and I have been in a really good place. This is what it was supposed to be all along, if I could have just let things go and relaxed a little. Instead, I went through a period of freak-outs and insecurity. Not entirely due to my situation with him, but... there were other things in my life. Now? I feel calmer. I'm not sure why, but I like it.
For some reason, I can compartmentalize now. When we're at the office, he's my co-worker. When we're around others but socially, he's my pal. When we're in bed, he's my lover. I don't consider this easy by any means, and I'm not taking it for granted. I'm enjoying it. This is a good friendship. Dude, he stuck through the insecurity and freak-outs to get to this place too. We don't owe each other anything but this good place right now.
OK, off to the car to drive home. Yes, I had to in order to get to work this morning b/c someone's lover dragged her to his place last night. Oops. Grin.